what the heck??

ok. it's getting late and i'm tired and probably not making sense anymore.

but, i'm sure you're thinking, "what the heck?"

you are about to have 4 kids. WHY are you thinking about adoption??

this is why:

God tells us to take care of orphans
There are millions of orphans out there
I love being a mom (and i don't think i'm too horrible at it)
We have the space
We have the resources
My heart aches for it every day - almost to the point of feeling like God is telling me to do it and i NEED to out of obedience

i'm not saying that God is telling EVERYONE to adopt and that you're sinning if you don't. but, i have learned in my Christian life, that if God is telling me to do something and i obey - i will experience HIM in a way that i wouldn't have if i hadn't obeyed His leading. I don't want to miss getting to know more of Him. this is one of the biggest reasons for me. why would i pass up a chance to see my God in a new way?? even if it's hard (which i know it will be) and even if it costs a lot (financially, physically, etc - which it will) and even if others don't understand (which i know they won't).

so, there you have it.

the beginning.
the why.

we'll see what God does from here.