someone needed me

i did NOT sleep well last night.

woke up at 2:22 am.
my feet were on the floor the second i woke up.
i heard crying and someone needed me.

i was in the girls' room {where the 3 older ones were sleeping} before i even realized i was awake.

i stood at the door and looked at all 3 of their sleeping faces.
so peaceful.
they didn't need me.
the house was silent except for my wildly beating heart.

and then i thought about them.
my sons that i can't run to in the night.
is someone there to run to them??

i spent the rest of my night tossing and turning.
thinking about them...