it's back

i'm thinking about it every day again. sawyer is 3 weeks old. i admit, for about 4 weeks (the last TORTUROUS week of pregnancy and the first 3 weeks of his life) i haven't thought much about adoption.

but it's back.

had a conversation with becca, mary and ali yesterday about it. i forget who i've told my "dream" to - but i think it's slightly obvious just where my heart is...that i have such an interest in adoption/orphans/africa.

it got my heart racing again...

i haven't had too many conversations with people about it. when i do, it's pretty short and i don't REALLY share how strongly i feel about it. i guess i'm scared that it will never really happen. that maybe it's not what God wants and then i'd look "stupid" for misreading Him. but the question i've gotten consistently is "Why do you want to?"

i don't have a great argument.

all i can say is, "it feels right" - there's a huge need, i have the desire to meet it, and i trust that God will give us the resources (financial, emotional, etc) to do it. that's it. no bullet points. just "it feels right."

Rebekah

we're in my bathroom one morning, just getting ready, doing hair, etc.

i've never talked to Rebekah about my desire for adoption. she's heard about it. about other people doing it. we've prayed for families doing it. we pray for orphans...those that don't have moms and dads (and houses and clothes and water...) but never talked about it for ourselves.

Rebekah says, "Mom, i think we should adopt some kids....

from Africa...

don't you?"

yes, Rebekah, i do. you have no idea.